Welcome to My Not-So-Fertile Life

Thanks for somehow finding my blog and for reading it. I'll let you know right up front that this is a new adventure for me. I have always written in some form - journals, poems, etc. However, this is my first venture into the land of blogging. I have no well-thought-out plan or formula to make this an amazing blog. I don't know if it will be humorous, touching, thought-provoking, or just terrible, whiney writing. My plan is simple: write about my not-so-fertile life - how it feels, what it makes me think, what we go through...

I find myself feeling on a daily basis utterly isolated in my struggle to become a mom. This is not true, of course, but it is easy to feel that way. I am surrounded by a wonderful group of friends who have no trouble popping out babies and an amazingly supportive husband. However, none of them can truly empathize with what this struggle means for me day to day.

So, here we have it. My blog. I'm hoping for it to serve 3 purposes:
1. Give me a place to get all of these thoughts out of my head. I'm no psychologist, so I don't understand the reasoning, but writing the words down or saying them aloud seems to help.
2. Jump-start me on my goal to someday finish writing my book and have it published.
3. Most importantly: Give you a place of connection. A life raft from your deserted island of infertility isolation. I live on that island too. We just aren't able to always see the other inhabitants.

I'm hoping that reading my experiences, struggles, small victories (hopefully there will be some), and all the thoughts that make me feel like a bad person when I'm really not will help you in your struggle to deal with the life not-so-fertile. You might not be struggling with this yourself physically. Maybe it's your wife, your husband, your sister, your friend, your co-worker. That's ok too. I wish my friends and family would read a blog like this. I know they want to understand and help, but I'm sure they struggle with not always knowing what to say or do.

So, who am I?

My Not-So-Fertile Facts:
Age: 29
Gender: female
Status: married
Children: 0
Puppy-babies: 1
Trying To Conceive: 2 years, 7 months
Miscarraiges: 1
Diagnosed: PCOS (Polycistic Ovarian Syndrome)
Medications: Metformin (1500mg/day) - thus far unsuccessful
Ovulation Sticks Used: 1 billion (not an exact number :-p)
Pregnancy Sticks Broken in Half in My Rage: 1

Disclaimer: There will be no-such thing as TMI in this blog. To those of you already on your not-so-fertile journey, this probably won't surprise you. To those of you who are new to the I'm Trying Really Hard to Have a Baby game - this blog might not be for you if you are squeamish about personal details! :-)

So, I hope that you keep reading. I hope it helps you somehow. I hope it helps me somehow. I hope that I get pregnant and stay that way. I hope that you do too, if you want to.